30 March 2012

a quote.

"Smart girls are over-thinkers, the insecure ones, the different ones. They know what the real world is like. They analyze every little thing in life. Why? To avoid getting hurt. To find happiness. They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems. They think too much. They trust less people. Their insecurity proves their respect towards themselves. Of course they try to live away from drama-filled life. Smart girls know their worth, and those are the ones worth keeping by your side."

23 March 2012

Happy Friday!

It's the first weekend of Spring! What are your weekend plans? Tonight, I'm getting together with a few friends in Providence for dinner and drinks! By sunday, I'm hoping to have my apartment organized (must finish craft room!) so I can enjoy the day relaxing, as I've heard it's supposed to be a damp day. Whatever fills in the rest of the weekend, I welcome with open arms :] Have a great one, loves!

{via Pinterest}

and I blame you...

This morning, I woke up to Gabe. And for the first time ever, I felt relief at him leaving.

21 March 2012

What's on my iPod v.7

Here are {some} of the songs I can't stop listening to lately. :]

Flood of Red - Like Elephants

Awolnation - Sail

Widowspeak - Half Awake

Snowmine - Curfews

The Shins - Simple Song

Low Roar - Patience

Thao and Mirah - Little Cup

enjoy! xoxo

the Sugary Smell of Springtime

This week has been one of my best in a while! Things are just going so smoothly, it's nice. Just followin' the swing of things. :]

Work has been one of my main stressors, but I'm starting to relax a bit when it comes to that. I really do love my job, and it bothers me when I can't keep up with the workflow. Our whole department is slowly sinking, but I'm thankful I have an awesome team of coworkers. Laughter is a constant in our office, and it's really a cool thing to have the same sense of humor as the other 4 girls. And when I say laughter, we have each other dying on a daily basis. Makes work all the more tolerable :] A posting for a per diem in our department just went out, so hopefully that will be the preserver to stop us from going under.

The weather in RI has been nothing short of amazing. Shorts for the past few days, the sun shining and hot. The cherry blossom across the street from my apartment is already blossoming! Yet it hasn't even hit April yet. I kind of fear that after everything starts to bloom, some type of crazy winter weather is going to wipe it all out. New England is really unpredictable... but I'm enjoying this while it lasts!

Ari has been hilarious as always. Last week we hit up a new taco stand in town, Tacos Jalisco, with our friends Lorena and Sofia! It had been beautiful all week, but the day we went it had turned chilly. Now, I've always been wary of trying new things (I've improved 100% with this), but this little stand is top notch! All fresh vegetables, hormone-free meat (I've asked!), and it's authentic Mexican. {For all you RI and nearby MA residents, it's on Social Street in Woonsocket}. Fairly priced, a chicken quesadilla will run you about $5. Totally worth it {even when I was throwing it up! lactose intolerant and ate so much cheese.) I'm not ashamed to say I've been there twice since last week haha. Ari and I even had a taco picnic at the park for dinner tonight :] Sooo good!

I have to say, I feel like I'm getting back to myself again; things look brighter. Keeping an open and optimistic mind has been my priority recently, and with that, things have been falling into place. The confidence I have in myself lately! SO uncharacteristic of me, but very much welcomed. Thanks to my sudden complete lactose intolerance, I had to cut cheese and milk out of my diet. I'm finally starting to lose weight again(!!!), considering I basically lived off of cheese (I'm serious). Anyway, Planning with my friends for the weekend has given me many things to look forward to! In a nutshell, it's going to be full of great friends, good drinks and definitely a lot of laughter. :]

I am totally blessed for all the perfect and beautiful people, things, and moments that make up my life. I am, I am.

my boy.

A's new favorite vegetable? Tomatillos and red peppers. Win!

vegetable + cheese quesadillas! super easy, recipe soon!

homemade sweet bread, nutella, bananas

my spot. haha

Our girls have played together since before Ari was a year old; they're full fledged toddlers now! It's awesome to have them together. They laugh when I say I have two babies haha.

Last night after work, I picked Ari up and her cousin Katie and we all went to the park. I am a total hovering mother. haha I never thought I would be, but I was all over any kid who tried to push the girls. "Excuse me, please dont push her!!!!" They had fun though, and I restrained my camera use until almost the end of the excursion. ;]

Every picture I take of Ari is pretty funny. She cannot stay still for more than a second!

Katie (who is 4 years old) was dyinggg to use my camera after seeing me snap a few photos. Who am I to deny a kids creativity? She was allowed to take one picture. I focused the lense and showed her which button to press. This was the result. I absolutely love it.

And I'm just saying, if you really want to make a good decision to better your life... you must find some girl scouts, and buy a box or five of lemon cookies. I'M ADDICTED. Throw em in the freezer... goodbye self control! ;]


19 March 2012

What It Means to be INTJ.

Everything. Everything has been coming at me a solid pace, I've somewhat given up on trying to keep things in order. It's a chaotic upswing and instead of trying to fight it, I'm going with it.

I have so many things to tell you about! Within the past few weeks, I've baked my first loaf of bread, watched Ari ride a bicycle (by herself!), got caught up *on one thing* at work, wore shorts!!, left the person I love, spent time with my best friends, visited Kammy's new apartment!, felt free, and became re-acquainted with new (old?) friends. Among many, many other things I know I'm forgetting. Photos to come!

Anyway, I've been learning a lot about myself lately. I've known my personality type for a few years now (total psychology lover, it's really weird!). In like, eighth grade, I took a little online quiz and was surprised that everything was so accurate. Last April, I finally took the complete Myers-Briggs Type Assessment. Somewhat startled, my results were exactly the same: INTJ. Once I read all about it, I was amazed! How can something so minute as a preference test tell you all about yourself?

Take the test HERE! For INTJ, check it out: but I decided to share a few of the truest points!

INTJs account for 1-4% of the world's population. (!)

In the workplace: "Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice."

"Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations."

"INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness."

"As parents, INTJ's main goal is to raise their children to be intelligent, autonomous and independent. They want their kids to think for themselves and make their own decisions, and so are likely to give them room to grow, and to challenge their decisions and thoughts at key points in their lives. The INTJ is not naturally likely to be an overly supportive or loving parental figure. Since their own need for expressions of love and affirmation is relatively low, they may have difficulty seeing that need in their children who have Feeling preferences. If they do see this sensitivity, they may not recognize or value the importance of feeding it. In such situations, there will be a distance between the INTJ and the child. This is a problem area for the INTJ, who should consciously remember to be aware of others' emotional needs."

"Judgment preferred to perception: INTJs tend to plan their activities and make decisions early. They derive a sense of control through predictability, which to perceptive types may seem limiting." *This makes me laugh out loud, because my friends always joke with me that I'm the 'planner', and Ari is the same way!

"The emotions of an INTJ are hard to read, and neither male nor female INTJs are apt to express emotional reactions. At times, INTJs seem cold, reserved, and unresponsive, while in fact they are almost hypersensitive to signals of rejection from those they care for. In social situations, INTJs may also be unresponsive and may neglect small rituals designed to put others at ease."

My most dominant shadow function:"Introverted sensors (Si)collect data in the present moment and compares it with past experiences. This process sometimes evokes the feelings associated with memory as if the subject were reliving it. Seeking to protect what is familiar, Si draws upon history to form goals and expectations about what will happen in the future.

What's your personality type? xoxo!

15 March 2012

everything is alright.

Maybe its a combination of being 4am and angry, but I am. I am wishing I made different choices. Who really wants to be with someone who puts them down constantly? Nothing was ever good enough. The house was never clean enough, my car was never clean enough, he hated my cats, I clearly wasn't even good enough for a compliment here and there. No, all I ever got was "wow you look good though" in the most sarcastic of voices, always when I was at my most vulnerable. I don't want to be with someone who can't even keep plans with someone "they care about so much". Oh... I forgot that having plans at noon and hearing from him at 8pm is okay. Its not like I was asking the world. If we went out to dinner, I paid for my food. I never expected anything from him; I just wanted some time. Its crazy, to be hurt by the same person (for a second time, 7 years later)- The irony has not been lost on me. Wondering why I didn't learn the first time, I now am realizing that my theory is right: the core of a person never really changes. When I get to missing him, its easier to hate him.

Edit: okay, so I was a little upset this morning. I had woken up to an email I really didn't want to see, and naturally at 4am, I needed to rant. Like I said previously, mornings are the worst... But in all seriousness, it sucks when the person you're loving shows you that it really was all a waste.

I promise I have less dramatic posts soon to be posted, but take this for what it is: a 4am rant.

14 March 2012

I need you so much closer...

Mornings are the worst. I always wake up 5-10 minutes before my alarm goes off between 5:45 and 6:30am. To be alone, in the darkness of a new day... I can't say I like it. I'm hopeful though, because I know everything is gonna get easier.

"don't believe what anyone says. You're not alone; you're strong. You have love to give, so give it away- and let go of the wrongs you've done.
You have today, now make your life your own."

13 March 2012

Take It As It Comes

Mother nature must be seriously happy with New England, because the weather we've been having is so awesome! I wore shorts tonight after work. The warm air has been a nice change; it's so noticeable in the way people have been acting lately. I work in a busy office building where people are always rushing in and out, angry looking, not caring if the door hits you in the face behind them. The past two days though, I have seen SO many people smiling, and just being more aware of everyone around them. Spring has seemingly broken out in Woonsocket; I'm okay with this!

Soo I'm not going to write much, but Gabe and I are no longer. Things change, but some things never change.. I'm honestly okay. I don't feel bad. I guess when the end is knowingly imminent from the start, it makes it much easier. I've been getting used to having all this space in the bed again. Anyway, luckily for me, I have great, hilarious friends who have been doing a good job at keeping my mind off of things. :] This weekend is St. Patrick's Day weekend, and I'm Irish! Woo!

Even though the week is half over already, I'm wishing it was a weekend morning. There's nothing like waking up and sleeping in a little, remembering that really, it is the weekend and unless you made prior engagements, your day is yours to do as you wish! I try to go on adventures as much as possible, I'm always happy to end up somewhere random. This may or may not be practical, but when I'm old, I hope I have more memories of fun adventures than practical life. Just gotta take it as it comes

Listen to this while viewing the pictures below; you'll want sunday morning.

all images via Pinterest

This sunday, I am resolving to stumble out of bed early and grab a coffee and yummy breakfast in Prov. ♥

06 March 2012

Blueberry Haze

The weather has been all crazy here in the Northeast, we're expecting temperatures to hit the 60's at some point this week! I have been daydreaming away about the summertime. For whatever reason, nothing evokes the image of summer in my mind like blueberries do.

love that colour palette

cute wedding favors!

blueberry pants? Spring must have.

04 March 2012

Photos of Life Lately {big post}

These past few weeks have been interesting. Time is just flying by, it's already March! I really want to start getting back on track with blogging, starting this week. I haven't had the motivation I did before, which I'm currently blaming on work and trying to get this house in order. There is still so much to do, even without painting. I get overwhelmed pretty easily, so this hasn't quite been working in my favor. But anyway, more on everything later; I promised a picture post, so here it is!

New Hampshire bound; Boston, MA

Hotel breakfast; Tilton Inn, NH

It was so cold in New Hampshire; blankets were definitely necessary.

Thrift store find; Gustav Klimt's 'the Kiss'

Another thrift store find; Amazing Yosemite Ansel Adams photos!! :]

Gabe and I got back to my house one day to find this truck parked on the sidewalk, facing the wrong direction, with a dog sitting in the drivers seat. haha hilarious

Putting together the Malm with his assistant, Juniper

She loves her rain boots!

Getting tattooed; Nate Moretti, McInnis Tattoo, Providence RI

Random mini snow storm! A nice surprise considering we've barely seen any snow this winter

breakfast at Nicks; Providence, RI

Gabe: "Take a picture of the people on the side of us' food" haha.

The only cool thing at Big Top flea market; Olneyville, RI

We went hiking one day at I don't even know where; somewhere in Massachusetts. It was a long walk, and it was cold, but it was beautiful.

Definitely hiked in moccasins. It was.... interesting.

Sometimes I have serious social anxiety, and as we were climbing this big hill I became wary because I heard a lot of people at the top. Turns out, it was a group of Mennonites taking photos. We couldn't stop laughing (oops :)

yummy fried chocolate ice cream from a local Thai place called Vohn's; Bellingham, MA

best friends.

xo! ♥