It's True.

{via pinterest}


-Oh, and check out this song called "I Remember" by Yeasayer. This is my heart right now. xo

A Morning Song.

I randomly found this song this morning and was struck by how beautiful it is and how simply it describes a mother's love. I think you'll enjoy...




I have never loved someone the way I love you
I have never seen a smile like yours
And if you grow up to be king or clown or pauper
I will say you are my favorite one in town

I have never held a hand so soft and sacred
When I hear your laugh I know heaven’s key
And when I grow to be a poppy in the graveyard
I will send you all my love upon the breeze

And if the breeze won’t blow your way, I will be the sun
And if the sun won’t shine your way, I will be the rain
And if the rain won’t wash away all your aches and pains
I will find some other way to tell you you’re okay.

You’re okay...

{p.s. if you get the chance, check the 'A Take Away Show' sessions on youtube. they are my absolute favorite}

Friday Happenings.

What are you lovelies up to this weekend? I'm hoping to take it kind of easy, and possibly start a new sewing project. Tonight is a much needed night out with my best friend and a few others. Beers, good talks and clearing my head will all be accomplished. I'm so tempted to just pack a bag, throw some blankets in the backseat, fill my car up with gas, and head somewhere I've never been. I'm craving change; I need a break from the monotony.

This week has felt like one of the longest in my life. I'll be back tomorrow with tales of a wild, debaucherous night (just kidding... maybe?)

I'll leave you with a beautiful song that's resonating with me today; conjuring up images of running away.



"Love's tame, you can't set it free
Come back and it's meant to be
The story's old, the odds have changed
Return or not, it feels the same

Be still, let the journey bring
Calm winds and a song to sing
Unroll the map and plot the course
Ignore the needle pointing north

Waves crash on a vacant pier
Boats rock on a sea of fear
The tide is high, your hope still floats
Pull the anchor, cut the ropes"

Have a great friday! xo

November! Currently....

It's the first of November! Ever since Ari was born in 2009, November has struck a chord with me and we've had a truce; things seem to work out well for me now, whereas pre-baby, it was a month just begging to break me down. Here's to good times ahead; Ari turning three, Thanksgiving, my family moving home to Rhode Island, and my niece being born.




You may be wondering about this strange icon above? I've decided to participate in something called NaBloPoMo, also known as "National Blog Posting Month". For the entire month of November, I will update every single day. That's thirty posts! I can't promise that every post is going to be something of substance, because face it, we all get burned out sometimes. However, starting today, I do promise you a variety of content to keep you entertained throughout the month. What would you like to see? Recipes, more photos, links to like, music?

I want to get this blog back to where it was before, but I think it's time for an identity change. While I am still a young mama, writing about life, I've realized I'm so much more than just a mama. Expect a complete update of this site in the coming days.


Anyway, because I'm feeling all gung ho about this here project- I'm going to take a page from one of the blogs I love, Sometimes Sweet, and do a 'Currently' post! It's a sweet little reminder of daily life, and maybe will become a mainstay in the future~



Watching: Boardwalk Empire! I cannot get enough of this show. It's based in Prohibition era in Atlantic City, New Jersey. The gist of the show is along the lines of the Sopranos, based on profit from crime and the sale of illegal alcohol. Steve Buscemi plays an awesome Nucky Thompson, although my favorite character (Spoiler: before he was killed off) was Jimmy. It's on HBO sunday nights at 10pm est, get addicted!


Listening to: I've been drifting from my usual, finding a variety of new music and re-discovering some old. The new Gaslight Anthem album is awesome, as well as Violent Waves, Circas newest. To get me in a working mood, I've had Name Taken stuck on repeat and some Skrillex. The east coast has been experiencing some less than pleasant weather as of late, so for those rainy day moods- DeYarmond Edison, Gates, Cassino and Cary Brothers. I'll elaborate more on this in an upcoming Whats on my iPod post.


Thinking about: How I'm going to blog for an entire month! I really do think of blogging like, all the time. What sucks is that I'm on a computer working for 40 hours a week, so by the time I get home, the only thing I can bring myself to do is browse other blogs and wish I had the time/energy to write haha. As I was saying above on an identity change for this blog- I just want to make this space as cozy as my home feels. I want an uninhibited spot of the internet where I can just go off on my thoughts and have them all in one place to eventually reflect on one day.


Loving: I've been absolutely in love with onions lately. I know, weird. But I want onions on everything I eat. I'm also loving the fact that this weekend we get to change our clocks back! I enjoy the dark, I love being at home when it's winter and cold outside. Saturday night, folks!


Reading: I'm in between a few books right now. It's not usually like me, but after finishing the 50 Shades series, I've been jumping head first into any and all reading materials. So currently, my list is "Sundays at Tiffanys" by James Patterson {re-reading because it's that good}, "1984" by George Orwell {re-reading} and "Siddhartha" by Herman Hesse.


Making me happy: The fact I have a tidy home right now! I used to be a super cleaner, OCD about everything. Now, being a single mama and still fighting the fatigue from mono, I could care less. I worked up the energy to completely clean my house {except my bedroom} and it's just so nice to get home after work and not feel overwhelmed by the amount of stuff that accumulates. Oh, lifes small pleasantries!


*One out of thirty posts down! Let's see where this exciting month takes us xo

Happy Friday!

It's the first weekend of Spring! What are your weekend plans? Tonight, I'm getting together with a few friends in Providence for dinner and drinks! By sunday, I'm hoping to have my apartment organized (must finish craft room!) so I can enjoy the day relaxing, as I've heard it's supposed to be a damp day. Whatever fills in the rest of the weekend, I welcome with open arms :] Have a great one, loves!



{via Pinterest}

Another broken promise tips the scale and it goes down.

I'm not going to have much time to write tonight, but I wanted to give ya'll a quick post-weekend update:

This weekend was just ridiculous. Because I decided to sleep all day on saturday, I woke up at 1230am and was ready for my day. One of my good friends and I drove around everywhere in Rhode Island searching for a breakfast place that was open at 530 in the morning, no such luck. Around 7am we finally stopped in Bellingham, MA. at 'the Breakfast Nook'. Ugh, so good. We laughed continuously over the fact that our saturday had yet to end, while the diner was piling up with folks bright-eyed from going to bed at 10 o'clock the night before.

Last night was one of the harder nights I've yet to have. Gabe and I have ended things, albeit not the way I wanted. We had plans for friday; I didn't hear from him until Sunday. I can't keep doing this to myself, hanging on for any shred of hope when I'm only going to be left disappointed once more. I think that's what I've come to dread in this situation; the feeling of disappointment. The ever-present knowing that hey, things may be good right now, but tomorrow they won't be. Tomorrow I'll be disappointed once again, just like the previous times that I've allowed this to happen. I keep telling myself that I want to be happy... but how can you be happy when you're giving up a part of your happiness? {And when I say happiness, I'm not sure if I mean happy, or comfort}. Gabe and I have always had something. Or maybe more likely, I've just always had something for him. I don't know how to explain, and I can't seem to escape it. I'm not entirely torn about it, because if he doesn't want to be with me, well that's the harsh reality and I'll learn to accept it in time. But, it still sucks. I miss all the laughing, cuddles and sweet goodbye kisses in the morning. Memories make this all the much harder.

Work is getting extremely busy! As we've been down a few people, breaks in the workflow are far and few between. I feel like I'm kind of getting stressed out, but it's really not my issue, so I just get in 'Work Mode'- Headphones on and blasted, Oreo cookies and Raspberry Arizona tea on deck, good to go.

I'm so excited to be getting tattooed again by Nate this wednesday! I love his work, and when I asked him to draw me up a teacup for my inner right arm, obviously I loved it. It's definitely me, and "there will be lots of purple" haha. Always a good time at McInnis.

Another thing I'm excited for: Mini vaca! I really need to start planning, but honestly I have no idea where to start. I'm looking for a quiet, bustling little town, with cute cafes and lots of bookstores, random odds and ends and scenery. Town, where are you?! I'm probably going to settle on Burlington, but I haven't completely abandoned the idea of upstate NY. I want to spend my entire weekend lounging with a book, strolling around, sipping coffee and wine, eating treats at family owned bakeries, enjoying the locals, things of that nature that nobody except moi finds fun haha. Hopefully I'll be able to do some real research and share it with ya'll soon. Only two weeks!


How this turned into a normal entry I'm not sure, but my real reason for posting is for this song.


I love Eisley, and when I heard this song I was immediately taken by it. Such raw lyrics, and it's speaking to my heart right now haha, making me feel a wittle bit better. Another good one: Smarter.


Xo!

{100 Posts!+ My Life Lately}

After starting this blog in January, I never thought people would be interested in what I have to say as much as they are. This posts marks 100 posts since then, and I just want to say to all of you who read: You encourage me to continue posting, and the support I've received because of and on my blog is incredible, so I sincerely thank you for getting to know myself, Ari, and being a part of this journey!

I've been meaning to write, but things have been a little hectic this week. Between working later, taking care of Ari and trying to keep up with the house, I've been exhausted. I have so many things that need to be accomplished in the coming months! A few things I am looking forward to:

Oct 21, Circa Survive show
Oct 23, Broke.Down (VW show)
Nov 23, Ari's second birthday!
Dec 03, City + Colour show
Dec 27, my 21st birthday

Ari's second birthday is in about a month, and I have so many ideas swirling through my head! I haven't made up my mind completely on what we're going to be doing, but the party will be at home, and all the decorations will be (of course) homemade. My mother and I have been going back and forth, tossing around ideas and scouring the internet while we work. I am excited to start on the decor, but feeling a tiny bit overwhelmed; second-guessing myself on whether I'll be able to finish in time. I'm also leaning towards no presents this year, but I'll elaborate on that in the future.

Lately, I can say I am content with how life is. Instead of trying to control situations (bad habit), I am just letting things be. And I've been much happier because of it. It's taken me a little while, but being independent has changed me SO much, for the better. I don't have to worry about anything (unless voluntary) that doesn't pertain to Ari or myself. I can be picky with who I date, because I don't have to settle for anything less than what I want. I don't mind spending time alone anymore; in fact, I relish the time I have alone and have nowhere to be except snuggling in my bed. Basically, I don't NEED anyone/anything to make me happy. I am creating my own happiness, by doing things I love, surrounding myself with people I enjoy, and just being. Simplicity is key and I have a long way to go, but I'm okay with that.

Last night, Gabe and I went to see one of my current favorite listens, Deer Tick, at the Met in Pawtucket. It was a really nice night, laidback, my first show in over a year! The band was great, although we decided to leave a little while before the show ended. I did take a couple of photos but I didn't bring a tripod so the camera shake is kinda crazy, those will be posted soon enough!

To wrap up this post, here are a bunch of photos from over the past 3 weeks. I'm trying to stay up to date so hopefully this will be the last photo dump for a little while! Also, I am excited to soon share two new posts relating to series I have done previously; A delicious vegetarian recipe and a Body Post Update! Happy friday! :)


Trip to Tiverton/ Little Compton/ Sakonnet Yacht Club






















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Ari loves to dress up and play in the mirror!




Washing my car, I don't know why but I love this picture. Happiness?


My desk and bench in my room were both thrifted seperately (desk-$30, bench-$5). I sanded and painted both, reupholstered the cushion on the bench and replaced the hardware on the desk drawer. I love how they came out, but I'm thinking of repainting the desk a bright solid color and polyurethane'ing the top surface.


Thrifted side table- $5. I was planning on refinishing this, but I like the rustic, vintage vibe the green color and pocked wood gives. I cleaned it up and for now this table will stay the same


Two pillows I've recently sewn


Ari's morning bedhead


Fruits! (Looking for a good recipe involving Pomegranates, send 'em my way!)