On: Being Busy!

It's been all "go, go, go" and not enough time to slow down. My fatigue finally gave way and I've been trying to get in as much as possible before it surely returns.

On friday, a wonderful friend took my car while I was at work, left me his, and I arrived at his house to mine working perfectly! I am so thrilled I'm not going to have to sell the Volkswagen. We have been through a lot, that car and I. Most major decisions of my life, too. Up and down the entire East Coast, Maine to Florida. I'm getting all sentimental now, but really, the GTI has been hangin' in there with me better than any guy I've ever dated ;]


This weekend was a good one! Of course spent with great friends, having some drinks in Providence and lots of laughs. I've been having the best mornings too, it's so nice.


Monday night, Ari was with her dad, so I headed to Providence once more. My friend Paul and I decided to meet up for drinks and to see a French film at the Cable Car Cinema, a small little theater downtown. We went to Centro to visit one of our friends, and then headed to the XO Cafe, the cutest little place. If you're looking for somewhere to go for drinks, and want an intimate but somewhat vintage experience, definitely try that place out. They even serve complimentary homemade potato crisps- amazing! After finishing our drinks {Whiskey + Amaretto Sours = love} we headed down the street to the film. Holy Motors is a film apparently about a man travelling through different lives. It was in French, and although with subtitles, very easy to follow. The plot was a lot more confusing. If you can view this film, do it! You will not be disappointed. When it finished, we of course stopped at Muldowney's and for a monday night, it was surprisingly packed. I didn't stay too long, but overall it was an awesome night!


I've been going wild at home- cleaning everything I can, organizing, whatever I can do before I burn myself out. Last night alone, I did mostly all of the dishes, seven loads of laundry, brought to the recycling about a months worth of cardboard and bottles. I'm feeling accomplished and it's a nice change, haha.


Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! It came so fast. I can't say I'm a big fan of the holidays... too many people crammed together making small talk, is not really something I enjoy. I am, however, looking forward to having the day off and spending my morning with Ari, as they are few and far between. I can't wait to let her wake up on her own time and cook her breakfast! We're doing something small this year, as things have been kind of hectic in my immediate family. Friday is the real special day, though- A will be three years old! Time has flown, and it makes me so sad; I miss baby Ari. At the same time, it's an amazing thing to see what an awesome little girl she is and is turning out to be.

Tonight, Lorena and I are taking our little girls bowling- Ari's first time! It's going to be the cutest thing to see. Photo update soon!


OH, and I am still committed to NaBloPoMo, I just needed a tiny vaca, haha.


Xoxo

You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful....

you are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one
who lives in your head
and you tried to change didn't you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can't make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.

{via Warsan in Wonderland}

Random Relationship Ramblings...

Aah... It drives me completely crazy to read entries from this past year, and see how embarrassingly blind I was toward my relationship situation. Like, really girl? The signs were all there from the beginning, and then some. I allowed myself to be treated like less of a person.. as if my feelings and thoughts didn't measure up, and therefore didn't matter. I accepted it, and once I did, everything started to crumble.

I made mistakes. I gave up a lot for this person. Friendships, a somewhat relationship, time, etc. And I can honestly, positively say it wasn't a waste. I've learned SO much. I've come to terms with everything on my own time, and I feel lighter. I feel happy. Sure, being alone is hard, but now that I'm where I am, I'd rather be alone and happy than miserable and together. {Can I even really say I'm 'alone'?}

The most important things I've learned:

1. Make time for YOU. Sure, you may want spend all your time with your lover and that's great, but don't do it. Go out with your friends, read a book, take a drive- whatever. Just make sure you have solo time. It's seriously important to your psyche and relationship.


2. Don't be second best. If a guy doesn't know what he wants/needs more time/has a lot going on... just leave it. 99% of the time it's just fuckery, and he wants you without having to totally commit. Again, don't do it. If someone wants to be with you, they'll make it happen!


3. Liars lie. Fact. If they lie about something that doesn't even matter in the big scheme of things, run. Don't even walk. Dealing with liars is a world full of pain, especially if you've been faithful and honest. You'll try to convince yourself that you're just in your own head... YOU'RE NOT. Don't let sweet talking fool you, either. Sure he's sorry and he loves you "so much", but if there are no actions to the words, throw the fish back into the ocean and don't think twice.


4. Take a step back. I am hypersensitive to most social/romantic situations, and when I'm going through emotions, especially stress related, it's really hard for me to just think. I'm often very irrational, and that tends to make things worse. Remove yourself from the situation for as long as you need to get your mind back to a relaxed state, whether it be hours or weeks. It's not easy, but it's necessary. Give yourself time to just be. You'll feel much better heading back into the situation {if you so choose!} if you have a calm heart and a clear head. {I will do a post on hypersensitivity one of these days, because of how misunderstood it is.}


5. I write hate lists. This may be totally immature, but whatever. It works. I basically write down about the offending party every shitty quality they have and situations where they've fucked me over. Get sad? Trying to justify things in your mind? Refer to your hate list. Instant reality! {I only pull this out for the tough/big deal situations haha. Friends need not worry!}


6. Let it go. When it's over, don't dwell. You'll hold yourself back for longer. As much as you may want to know WHY, let it be. It's over, that's all that matters. Turn your focus from your "non-existent at this point" relationship to what makes you happy, and things will significantly get better. Surround yourself with friends, do everything you wanted to do without hesitation. It's all about rebuilding yourself into a stronger, wiser entity.


7. Don't let it ruin you. Just because one douchebag lies to you and treats you like shit, doesn't mean everyone will. There are amazing people in the world- 7 billion of them! A quote that's been sticking with me- "Don't waste energy on situations you CAN'T control. It is out of your hands. Focus on the ones you can". Truly brilliant. Everyone is different, and eventually your different will find someone elses different and make you feel complete. Don't count yourself out!


I think what has made it easier for me this time around is, I know I tried, and instead of feeling shitty + unloved, I feel proud of myself. I'm loving myself right now, and that is an amazing thing. I've been waiting a long time for this.  Now this is farewell, to what was and what could have been. I'm open for the future and I am not scared, but optimistic about what great things lay ahead.


xo





{disclaimer: this is only what I went through in my personal experience. everybody's different.}

An Introduction to Winter

On behalf of the weather we've received, I've been daydreaming my life away thinking of the months to come and the coziness that will ensue. Big blankets, hot chocolates, blustery wind blowing outside while being warm in the house, cuddles on the couch, late night car rides through the slow drifting snow...

Here's a few photos to get you daydreaming, too!


{all images via pinterest}














winter weddings are so beautiful..






























my dream life... this will be my future..

xo

Athena, the Nor'Easter.

The East Coast cannot catch a break. It seems to be one insane thing after another; a big earthquake in Maine, a monster hurricane that tore the eastern seaboard apart, and now a Nor'Easter. Rhode Island was supposed to escape relatively unscathed, however where I am in the northern part of state, it's been continuous snow. It came quite early actually, where it was supposed to come for a few hours around 5pm, it slowly started at noontime and picked up very fast. There's a really strong, chilling wind that will freeze your bones.


At the start of the storm on my break at work, I braved mother nature and snapped a few photos.


the first flakes..

































shitty ride home, that's for sure!


As for now, I'm ready to finish watching season one of GIRLS and cuddle in the warmth of my house. Stay toasty xoxo

Full Circle.

March 7th to March 9th, 2006
~i guess this is the end of everything. and its all kind of mixed-up, because im really sad and im happy and im relieved, but most of all im confused and i dont know how to use anything but run-on sentences, and for some reason, i keep running into things that just make me feel worse and i tried to get rid of all your old e-mails and the stupid things you gave me, but i guess i cant. i guess maybe its for the better, because i cant keep taking it out on myself everytime i get hurt. and i guess youre right, theres no reason for us to stay like this. and i guess youre right, well still be friends. for a while anyways. sometimes i wish i could forget everything, and sometimes i regret everything ive ever told you. and sometimes i regret everything we've ever done/ seen together. but most of the time i dont, and i guess thats the worst part. i want to hate you, my friends say i should. and i cant. i guess im just afraid of being alone. and i guess i forgot what its like when you dont have someone who will hold your hand, and when you dont have someone to fall asleep next to. and when you look back on everything that made you laugh, and it just makes you cry because you cant remember ever being that happy. maybe i overreact to everything, and maybe im jealous and paranoid. but i dont think im that bad. i dont know, im sick of trying to look on the bright side and im sick of saying things will get better, because when they dont i just get let down. ive never loved/needed/wanted someone so much. its completely foreign to me, to be this infatuated with someone else. my entire life has been selfish, and maybe thats why sometimes i did such a bad job of being your girlfriend. but i love you more than anything. and it was my biggest fear that you didnt feel the same way anymore. im not sure if id rather have you as a friend or just a peice of history. i want whichever will hurt the least, i suppose.



~you say you need time alone, but yet when you catch my scent you want it to surround you.. you want all the benefits a boyfriend would have with me, but i don't want to give in to you.. it will make it seem as if what you've done is okay. it's not okay, at all. all i want is to just kiss you as if it was all the same. today made me realize that you want best of both worlds.. it's not going to happen.

i feel bad about certain things i've done, and if I knew it would ruin us I would have changed the way everything happened, but i guess i cant do anything about it. After seeing what it's like with someone else, I knew exactly what I wanted, and it was you.. its just so hard because i felt like when i started to get close to you, you pushed me away. and now that i'm trying to move on, you come and try to make it seem like you want me back. but you dont, you dont want things to be the way they used to be. you want to be able to have fun and not have to worry about other peoples feelings and not have all of these commitments. except you expect me to only be with you, while you can talk to all these other chicks who dont care about you half as much as i do. its so unfair to me. i dont know, im too stuck on not hurting people to care about myself sometimes. i guess we both have things to get over.


"Well, I love the way your hands touch mine
Like a gift from god, worth a lifetime
In case tomorrow doesn’t find its way
Just stay love is forever don't throw it away"




*I wrote those entries in 2006 (on Livejournal!!) when I was going through pretty much the same situation with the same person. It's incredible to see how things change and how other things never do; everything eventually comes full circle. For whatever reason, this needed to be documented. I am desperately seeking closure; I can't keep beating myself up for not being enough for this person, when in reality, he will never be satiated- with anybody. There comes a time when you're just sick of it all, all the games, the playing. Stability is a factor in my life that must be considered, and I will never allow my feelings for someone to overcome my reality, ever again.

Pointed North.

This weekend didn't turn out quite like I had planned, but it was fun nonetheless. Unfortunately on friday, I ended up passing out on the couch until 1130 at night, therefore rendering plans with Lorena not possible. We ended up rescheduling for a lunch date yesterday, which was SO nice. Afterwards, I headed to Providence to have a few beers at Muldowneys. My friends and I ended up leaving there and walking down the street to the Alley Cat, a tucked away little gay bar. We usually will stop at the Stable, but we all voted on the latter. Such a fun night! Anything goes in that place, and the atmosphere was cool; the bartenders were super nice and personable, drinks were strong, and the bar was packed. I sung my heart out and had a great time.

Today, I needed a little time to clear my head, and it was beautiful out. I packed my blanket, a book, the camera and some tea and headed to Pascoag- to a small little clearing on the outskirts of a pond. The sun was shining so brightly, and so I hunkered down on my blanket to read. It was nice to lay there, in the complete quiet, except for a few leaves rustling to the ground. Overall, I'd say a successful, lazy sunday.






























~just a random one from a weekend morning...

i'm so ready for bed, sleep tight xo ♥

my life.

via~ fuck! i'm in my twenties

Friday Happenings.

What are you lovelies up to this weekend? I'm hoping to take it kind of easy, and possibly start a new sewing project. Tonight is a much needed night out with my best friend and a few others. Beers, good talks and clearing my head will all be accomplished. I'm so tempted to just pack a bag, throw some blankets in the backseat, fill my car up with gas, and head somewhere I've never been. I'm craving change; I need a break from the monotony.

This week has felt like one of the longest in my life. I'll be back tomorrow with tales of a wild, debaucherous night (just kidding... maybe?)

I'll leave you with a beautiful song that's resonating with me today; conjuring up images of running away.



"Love's tame, you can't set it free
Come back and it's meant to be
The story's old, the odds have changed
Return or not, it feels the same

Be still, let the journey bring
Calm winds and a song to sing
Unroll the map and plot the course
Ignore the needle pointing north

Waves crash on a vacant pier
Boats rock on a sea of fear
The tide is high, your hope still floats
Pull the anchor, cut the ropes"

Have a great friday! xo

November! Currently....

It's the first of November! Ever since Ari was born in 2009, November has struck a chord with me and we've had a truce; things seem to work out well for me now, whereas pre-baby, it was a month just begging to break me down. Here's to good times ahead; Ari turning three, Thanksgiving, my family moving home to Rhode Island, and my niece being born.




You may be wondering about this strange icon above? I've decided to participate in something called NaBloPoMo, also known as "National Blog Posting Month". For the entire month of November, I will update every single day. That's thirty posts! I can't promise that every post is going to be something of substance, because face it, we all get burned out sometimes. However, starting today, I do promise you a variety of content to keep you entertained throughout the month. What would you like to see? Recipes, more photos, links to like, music?

I want to get this blog back to where it was before, but I think it's time for an identity change. While I am still a young mama, writing about life, I've realized I'm so much more than just a mama. Expect a complete update of this site in the coming days.


Anyway, because I'm feeling all gung ho about this here project- I'm going to take a page from one of the blogs I love, Sometimes Sweet, and do a 'Currently' post! It's a sweet little reminder of daily life, and maybe will become a mainstay in the future~



Watching: Boardwalk Empire! I cannot get enough of this show. It's based in Prohibition era in Atlantic City, New Jersey. The gist of the show is along the lines of the Sopranos, based on profit from crime and the sale of illegal alcohol. Steve Buscemi plays an awesome Nucky Thompson, although my favorite character (Spoiler: before he was killed off) was Jimmy. It's on HBO sunday nights at 10pm est, get addicted!


Listening to: I've been drifting from my usual, finding a variety of new music and re-discovering some old. The new Gaslight Anthem album is awesome, as well as Violent Waves, Circas newest. To get me in a working mood, I've had Name Taken stuck on repeat and some Skrillex. The east coast has been experiencing some less than pleasant weather as of late, so for those rainy day moods- DeYarmond Edison, Gates, Cassino and Cary Brothers. I'll elaborate more on this in an upcoming Whats on my iPod post.


Thinking about: How I'm going to blog for an entire month! I really do think of blogging like, all the time. What sucks is that I'm on a computer working for 40 hours a week, so by the time I get home, the only thing I can bring myself to do is browse other blogs and wish I had the time/energy to write haha. As I was saying above on an identity change for this blog- I just want to make this space as cozy as my home feels. I want an uninhibited spot of the internet where I can just go off on my thoughts and have them all in one place to eventually reflect on one day.


Loving: I've been absolutely in love with onions lately. I know, weird. But I want onions on everything I eat. I'm also loving the fact that this weekend we get to change our clocks back! I enjoy the dark, I love being at home when it's winter and cold outside. Saturday night, folks!


Reading: I'm in between a few books right now. It's not usually like me, but after finishing the 50 Shades series, I've been jumping head first into any and all reading materials. So currently, my list is "Sundays at Tiffanys" by James Patterson {re-reading because it's that good}, "1984" by George Orwell {re-reading} and "Siddhartha" by Herman Hesse.


Making me happy: The fact I have a tidy home right now! I used to be a super cleaner, OCD about everything. Now, being a single mama and still fighting the fatigue from mono, I could care less. I worked up the energy to completely clean my house {except my bedroom} and it's just so nice to get home after work and not feel overwhelmed by the amount of stuff that accumulates. Oh, lifes small pleasantries!


*One out of thirty posts down! Let's see where this exciting month takes us xo

{on my mind}

I've been feeling some strange kind of way. I've been craving change in its entirety, and while I feel motivated, at the same time I feel defeated.

I really want to focus more energy on this blog. Its truly an escape, a break in life I need to utilize; keeps me grounded. Time has been non-existant though, the pace of things keeps getting faster and faster.

It's already August! I just can't comprehend how this summer flew by. Next month, fall will be upon us again, with chilly mornings and the soft fluttering sounds of leaves floating to the ground.

Ari is amazing. A perfect blend of her fathers and my best qualities. She's really coming in to her own- flourishing is really the word to describe it. Ari loves playing dress up, especially with heels that I hear clicking constantly across our floor. She's such an animal lover, the child has no fear when it comes to dogs or any other animals (including goats!). She is the least picky eater out of any child that I know, save for texture issues that we are still having (hmph). Vegetables are her food of choice, especially raw. She'd be awesome as a vegan; me, not so much. Ari's artistic qualities have been shining bright! She loves to color, paint, draw, everything. Books are important to her, and that makes me so, so happy. I am trying to teach her now that books should be respected, and how to properly care for one {we have too many missing pages in our Dr. Seuss series}.

The new apartment is almost completed; All that's left is finding a rad couch and chair to fit in the living room.

Within the next few months I'm hoping to sell my Volkswagen, and get something more reliable... but still a VW. :)

This month is going to be packed with awesome events that I am just so excited for. This upcoming weekend is Milltown, a hot rod and motorcycle show in Sturbridge, MA. Gabe and I will be camping out with another couple, so it's definitely going to be a fun time. Old cars and beer? Well alright! The weekend of the 18th, Gabe and I are heading up to Brooklyn, NY! The last time I was there, welll.... we won't get into that, but right off the bat I know this is going to be a much better trip than the last time I was there. Gabe's getting tattooed at Smith Street Tattoo Parlor, so we'll be spending the day in the city; I'm hoping I'll be able to talk him into seeing Central Park and visiting a bunch of thrift stores! And finally, on the 24th, I'll be getting my right thigh tattooed after much hype. Panther. YES.

So there will be plenty of photos, I'm currently blogging at work (oops!) but I do have a photo post from the month of July that will be up soon, as well as photos from the past weekend of thrifting around the Ocean State!

Happy August all! xo

On Life {& things of that sort}

After a month hiatus, I've been yearning to blog. For a while, blogging was becoming somewhat of a chore for me; I looked at it as yet another task I had to accomplish and somehow structure in the crazy day to day that had become my life. Instead of getting down on myself for the lack of enthusiasm I had toward something that made me happy, I decided to take a break. To not worry whether or not posts were up, and being read, and how much exposure my writing was getting. I got caught up in the technical aspects, and not in the fun I once had. I needed to arrange my priorities. I feel refreshed, and ready to continue on this journey of documentation.

What a perfect time to take time off from writing, because things were so hectic I'm not sure I would have even wanted to share. Between differences with my previous neighbors, family situations, arrangements with Ari's father, and moving... I feel like a screenplay could have been written about the goings-on. I will admit that the past month has been one of my darkest times; The feeling of despair was overwhelming. However, I'm content knowing my head is in a better, more peaceful place lately. I'm very hopeful things are going to keep getting better!

Ari and I have recently downsized to an adorable two bedroom apartment owned by one of my wonderful aunts. I am just so thankful. We're currently still in the "boxes everywhere" stage, but things are slowly starting to come together. There are no bad memories associated with this new home, and a fresh start is making me feel complete. I have a real kitchen! (which I have been putting to good use). Everything just needs to be organized and a few things obtained; a bookshelf for fabrics, paints, camera equipment and all things creative; a couch, preferably thrifted; and a desk for my bedroom. My bookshelf is currently being utilized as (what else) a bookshelf; albeit so completely stocked full, I may need another one! I'm in the market for another desk as well- the one I refurbished is being used as my sewing station, and I'd really love to have a little workstation in my bedroom.

Yesterday was the Fourth of July, my favorite holiday. We celebrated by visiting my mother and stepdad at their home in Johnston, basically a farm. Ari had a blast playing with the baby chicks and the goats- I had a blast photographing the greenhouse with the awesome water culture, the old still in use well, and just the sheer natural beauty of being so close to the city, yet feeling a million miles away. I miss country living for that reason, the feeling of freedom.

I'm excited to report that as of tomorrow, internet will be set up in our new home, so photos and a lot more posts are to come!

I hope you've all had a wonderful June, and enjoyed a patriotic day yesterday xo

Life Lately! v.?

It's been almost a month since I've last blogged. Typing my thoughts feels somewhat new, as I've been writing a lot instead. Truth be told, I needed the little break -felt guilty everyday though! ;] Thoughts and life has been so tumultuous over the past month, I'm forever glad that April is over. November used to be considered my worst month, but for the past three years April has taken that spot.


Things have been moving along. Work has gotten better now that the entire department is finally together. Love my work girls, we're always laughing and making the best out of it.


Unfortunately {or fortunately?), I've been taking into account the people I allow in my life, and due to circumstances, I've downsized about three, maybe more?... but as some friendships grow weak, others grow stronger and I've been having a bunch of great outings with some old friends. I can't wait to do more as the warm weather starts to roll in.


Ari. My little peanut is so not a peanut anymore. She tells me herself, "Mom. I am not a baby, Im a big girl". Like, really? Kid, you're two. But as she keeps getting older, I find myself and Ari becoming a team that kinda transcends the usual mother- daughter relationship. Maybe every single mom feels like this, but I feel like we're both finally adjusted to it being only her and I. She's such a trooper too. Ari walks up to our 4th floor apartment if both my hands are full, and she doesn't even complain. She loves Bon Iver, Band of Horses {still} and Gotye right now. Loves dressing up in her princess dress up clothes and heels. Loves to draw + paint {on everything}. Loves vegetables, cheese and vegan chocolate cupcakes. Ari had a taste of spicy noodles at Thai Garden and she did not like that LOL. She still has texture issues, hates having dirty hands, and absolutely despises if one of the cats goes in her room at night because "it wakes her up". She is not fond of mornings whatsoever, or going to bed for that matter. But it's never a big issue, the kid loves sleep. She has a pretty good sense of fashion, loves owls on clothig + jewelry, and knows which shoe goes on which foot. I am totally enthralled by her! She's such a happy girl, and to see it makes me feel like I'm doing alright.

Things are different at my house compared to everywhere else Ari goes. I haven't had cable tv in over a year, and I honestly don't even miss it. I had a dvd player, ONE, in my bedroom. It broke somehow and I don't want to pay $20 to replace it haha. I have movies on my laptop, which is my last resort now, and life must be against my use of electronics. How does a full can of Arizona iced tea just fall off a solid surface onto my computer? HOW?? ugh, yes. That did happen. Anyway, the best part of all this is that Ari just accepts it. Tonight it made me sad when she told me "we need a tv". Uhhh, no! We don't. She's usually so busy coloring, painting or playing she never asks to watch television. We listen to music, paint our nails among everything else. Her new thing is to chat before bed. It's so funny, I can picture doing this 10 years from now. I'll sit down with her cup, she'll start asking me random questions with her hands tucked behind her head on her green turtle pillow {seriously relaxing}. We'll chat a little bit more. She wants more glow in the dark stars stuck to her bed. Tomorrow after we go to the movies for her first time ever (!), her bed will most likely be bright as hell in her bedroom haha.


Things between Gabe and I have been decent, don't know what we're doing, but who does, right? I love him, he knows that, so yeah. Everything's alriiiiight!


This past weekend was such a fun weekend. I'm not mexican, I'm French, but I appreciate margaritaaaas! I worked at Spectrum Indias table at the first ever Thayer Street Festival. It was just strange to charge folks $15 to come into a gated area and pay for everything full price... hm. After I got out on saturday I met up with Kammy and we went back to Providence to celebrate Cinco de Mayo! We started off at the Celtic Lounge. I figured it may have been like the last time I ordered a margarita there, pure alcohol for $8. But no. The bar was full, so we sat in a little table next to the bar and squeezed in near the door to the kitchen. LOL. We ended up leaving that place for Thayer. The sun had finally come out full force after a week of non stop miserable weather, so we went to our seemingly favorite bar, Shark. We got to sit outside, sweet. Somehow we made a cigarette break friend, and when they were leaving, the waiter brought out anotherrr drink and said it was on them. So cool, especially considering their prompt depature, which left Kammy and I to suck thst margarita down fast as hell because we both wanted Cheese Fries really, really bad. It was a fun night haha.

Another cool thing: I'm gonna be an auntie! My sister is due December 11, which is disgustingly weird considering that was my due date as well! But yeah, my first nephew {says Laurie the gypsy}, and I wish Aly would consider the name Athol as maybe even his middle name?? But I'm very excited, and I can't wait for Ari to be a big cousin!


Overall, things are just fine over here in this attic type apartment in little Rhode Island. I'm hoping for nice weather to come, because I'm dying to picnic, and get a new bicycle, and do summery things including riding a motorcyle and wearing a shitload of sunblock everywhere forever. :]


Photos to follow soon! xo

Good Times {weekends}

The past few weeks have flown by! It's already April, I kind of can't even believe it. The start of warm weather is sure to come soon, and I know Rhode Island is definitely ready for it. We had a string of beautiful weather, and then as soon as it came, it left; bringing with it the icy, cold rain. It was a somewhat strangely welcome change of pace, but the sun shining today put me in the best mood.

Work has of course been miserably busy, I've been doing OT and coming in early, for free. Hopefully one day this year things will be decent so I don't feel guilty taking a vaca ;]

Ari is hilarious as always. She always makes me laugh, and says the funniest things. I was listening to her try to coax the cat into the other room, so I said "Ari, you can't make someone do something they don't want to do, okay?" As I heard her little feet run away, I also heard her say "noo". Hahaha

Two weekends in a row I've hung out with great people. From being at Muldowney's, to Thayer Street, to a house party; wherever I go, the common denominator is my best friend Lorena, which equals a super fun time haha.
{I don't go out nearly as much as the following depicts; it's called drunk camera-ing} late night pizza eating haha A few weekends ago, fried vegetables at Kabob + Curry on Thayer Street All the beautiful spring weather caused a lot of things to bloom early. I am so glad I got a picture of the tree, because when I came home from work that day the cold air had begun to turn it brown. I snapped more photos.
Baby toes (in dress up heels- waahh!!) This past saturday, my friends and I decided to make a feast. We followed through with it, and it was well worth it. Steak, chicken wings, mashed potatoes, spanish rice, brussel sprouts, garlic parmesan italian bread. Even homemade mango peach tea (including the 1/3 of a handle of the Captain ;) After dinner, we played some card games and somehow it turned into a full blown party. It was super fun, as I vaguely remember falling asleep sitting up in the driveway haha. :
i forget why he was growling haha
last photo taken before my camera battery died
I won't even lie, I am totally one of those people at the bar who is so curious as to everyones "story". I had to get a picture of this couple; If you were at Andreas bar on Thayer on friday, and this is you, well wow. I have never seen two old adults act like thirteen year olds before. "Totally dating" haha

Two mirror pictures in one night... yes I do that.
{pbr, if you're curious ;}

my hand looks giant here!
Aahh nights in Providence. I've gotten a lot done within this time frame too though! Living room and craft room, both completed :] Ari's room is practically done, only thing left to do is go through her clothing this weekend, which I am surely dreading. Things have just been so busy, I have no time to think. I kind of like it this way.
Clean car and summer wheels outside of McInnis
tonight with my sunglasses; when Knockarounds become available in toddlers, snaggin' someee.
She is seriously a ham

Now I'll leave you with only the best collection of photographs EVER. I laughed my head off. Enjoy xoxo